Update

It’s been quite a long time I haven’t updated my blog. It’s not simply because nothing happened around me, but I was not in the mood of sorting things out and summarize them.

I have been working for IELTS ever since the New Year but unforturnately, to those who care so much about my test, I still haven’t passed it. To be honest, although there is plenty of rumour about the injustice of IELTS system, I don’t believe my failure can simply be blamed on a lack of luck. During the preparation of the test, I got a clear picture of my weakness in English-poor vacabularies, rigid sentance structures, loose logic…It seems I have lived under the illusion of my English level for years so that it was just stuck there without any improvement. After a series of beats by IELTS, I was disillusioned by the cruel fact and understand there is a big stride to get there.  But I would take the pressure of preparing the test to improve my English, as I believe, no matter where I’m working, good skills in a language could be essential and an advantage of me.

Th joyful moments always slides away unconsciously. I had been waiting for my parents’ arrival for ages and soon they have departed. I was upset and felt painful in my heart as I felt when I left GZ last year. I was so happy to stay with them these days that I even considered leaving here and going back with them. I laughed at my dad’s laziness and foolish posts, enjoyed the meals cooked by my mum every day, and was amused by their small apparent fights all the time. Their love and support sweeps my fear about the uncertain future I have to face, because I konw even though I lose everything here, they would be still waiting for me at home.

Remember when Estevina said to me on the day I farewelled her at a cafe,’you’re smarter than XXX, but you are just not as lucky as her in many cases’, I responded with a smile and silence calmly. Actually I found myself already lucky enough. I’m grateful of meeting so many excellent people, offering me courage and confidence to overcome the restless moments in my life.  

I would never forget MT’s text on the first Mid-autumn Day after I went to University, encouraging me to continue to study hard and work hard to be a pragmatic person, after I failed the university entrance examination; 

I was touched by the great care from my current boss of the bread shop, who treated me kindly and narrated her stories of success to encourage me to fight at each turning points in life;

I was comforted by words from Kawa and cheery from the far end in GZ, reminding me " it’s not that important, if you couldn’t make it, just come back to be a turtle";

and I appreciated the generous help from tutor Paul, to correct my awful writing and give me constructive advice each time. I’ll remember the saying "If ur gold, u will shine", so touching and motivating……

Little by little, I realize my real luck probably lies in not direct assistance from others, such as an offer of jobs or good luck to pass the exam, but inspiration from others, known or unknown, to lead me to grow and fulfill my plan all the way.  

 

 

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